First of all I would like to thank all of you who helped making my 18th birthday such a great experience. Thank you, it was amazing!However, these days havn't been easy, but noone said everything in life would be. I've been struggeling with myself and my stupid thoughts that are so likely to show up when I don't have enough stuff to do in the afternoons/weekends. It's so easy to start not believing in oneself and the last thing one need in an exchange year is lack of hope, and belief, and self confidence. But I think, I don't know but I hope, that I've managed to change a little of this in the week that has gone. This week it has been busy almost every afternoon, with driving education, yearbook meeting and yet a float meeting tomorrow. Today I talked to Mrs MacDonald about joing Teens Against Drugs and tomorrow I'm going to Youth Group in the evening.
Let's face it, I'm here to learn, right? I'm here to become stronger and wiser. I'm here to broaden my mind, to let go. And that I've certainly done, yeah babie.
This weekend me and Bruno met Robert (a teacher from camp) in Moncton and we went for dinner. It was very nice, Robert is such a wonderful person and he has so much interesting things to tell. And it was so nice to come into town and feel the city life again for a while. I am a city person, it's no wonder since I've lived in a town my all my life. And one of the main problems for me out here is the isolation. I'm not able to get anywhere without a drive, the buses are non-existing. It's frustrating but yet another thing to learn from, I guess. As in I will not move out on the country when I'm about to get my own place.
And I've got people I know in Moncton. Bruno's host parents are so nice and they said that I just have to make a call and I can stay there for the weekend whenever I want. Janet said the same thing. I've just been so afraid to ask for too much, and be truble for people. That's not a good thing, and I need to work on it.
Having host sibblings... that's another thing that is hard to adjust to. Especially since they're all about my age. I was living as the only child at home, I'm not used to fight for my spot. Now I have to learn, and I have no doubt getting to know this way of living won't be beneficial for me in the future, and help me understand others. And that is what I want, being able to understand others, whether we're talking about different ideas, beliefs, conditions, oppurtunities or maybe even life itself as a whole.
Addressing problems is one thing, solving them is another.
3 comments:
word, way! i understand you =) Men det ordnar sig, later supercoolt det dar med flotten, hihi. och gissa hur avis jag ar pa dina korlektioner... :P
massa kramar!!
That's the way to go! Bra Elin, du tänker alldeles rätt - svårigheter är till för att övervinnas, och jag tror som du, att du lägger alla erfarenheter i din korg och har stor nytta av dem i framtiden! Det är också bra, att du nu vågar "ta för dig" och säga ifrån när det inte fungerar. Marie, Tobias och jag tyckte du var jättemodig när du tog upp dina bekymmer och gjorde nåt åt dem. Jag hoppas att det känns bättre nu, och att du tar det lugnt på vägarna (det är väl bara teori än, eller? :)?
Stor kram från mamma
Håller helt med din kloka mamma! Glad att höra att du ser saker från en ljusare sida nu. Det var väldigt roligt att snackas, så det får vi försöka göra lite oftare. Kram, Hanna
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